Gaming

PC games used to be my most common activity before, but during the years my interest gradually fades away and playing most games feels like unrewarded chore rather than some kind of entertainment. I still might keep the passion of playing something I really like for 8+ hours a day and this is still my favourite method of wasting time, but finding an actually interesting game for me is extremelly difficult, so that nowadays it happens rarely only by a small chance if somewhere I notice something that I might enjoy. Most games I kept playing for a longer time are listed on my Steam profile, but often I refund or only 🏴‍☠️ stuff I played for a very bit for the sake of trying it and didn't like it in the end. For now I don't play or try to play games usually, once a half of the year I do "gaming sessions" in which during a week or two I try to play bunch of games I've noted in advance.

Battlefield

Rarely I play BF4 (the last online game I still play sometimes), before played BF3 and because of cheap price I also tried BF5 (shooting mechanics/system is good, but I prefer modern setting and I don't like the simplicity since managers think I'm too stupid to choose weapon accessories by myself).

Prefer to play as an infantry and brainlessly solely run across the map between objectives to find some action, as a result often die by enemy vehicles or groups of enemies, so my horrible KDA remains around 1 (I actually care about KDA because I don't know any other metric to judge how well or badly I perform since farming points and be on the top of the team scores list is easy if you play from the beginning of the map session). Rarely I might use tanks, can't fly at all (maybe I could poorly before, but it was more than 5 years ago): play as a driver -> no one repairs you, play as a gunner -> driver dives into enemies or drives away from you when you try to repair their vehicle. Speaking about KDA, in BF5 I played mostly maps with small amount of vehicles (more pure infantry gameplay), and I could maintain KDA 2+, so I can't say that I play BF that awful.

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BF4 E4GL servers (I play mostly here in the past few years) E4GL profile signature image

Starcraft II

One of the toughest to play games I ever played (online 1v1 competition I mean), due to that I watched videos and pro streams like hundred times more often than I played the online itself. Around 2018 I got into diamond 3 or 2 as a terran, year later came back to the game and got around 3900 MMR (diamond 1 I guess) as a protoss (no profile I forgot my nickname). Matchups for me back then: TvP is unfair, TvT is exhausting, PvT is unfairly easy, PvZ is almost as unfair as TvP, PvP is stupid. Since I was not interested in playing zerg, I could not understand what to choose because terran was too hard and protoss was too easy 🤷‍♂️. Loved replaying WOL campaign, HOTS and LOTV are good, but not as good as WOL IMO.

OSU!

Got here to have fun moving the mouse cursor around the screen and ended on that. 400k peak leaderboards rating (omg noob fr fr). Around 2021-2022 stucked in my comfort zone playing aim maps: 4.6-4.8* FCs to get more peformance points, 5-5.9* passes just to play without getting any progress, 9* relax mode to try to hit at least something (I try to only minimize misses). Ocassionally I open the game again to test new mouses or to have fun moving the cursor to the music as I used to do before. My profile can be found here OSU!

Nightcore maps are my favourite thing to play in the entire game (seriously, OSU helped me to reunite with Hands Up genre and to discover nightcore for which I'm really grateful), many of them are very comfy to play, especially modern ones. Rarely may try HD, even more rarely HR, barely able to play for accuracy. The main reason probably why I didn't stuck in OSU for longer is that I'm very picky about selecting maps to play, over several years I collected about 100 maps in total, because of that I play same things over and over again without any skill progress since finding new maps is difficult for me (IMO often higher star rate means more interesting maps. For the very beginners its even more difficult: I can pick only a very few maps <4* that are interesting, maybe because I didn't find 3* aim maps back then if they even existed).

Before quitting the game I got an important conclusion: I always could not play streams, so I thought how do I learn them to gain skill in another type of maps. And then I realized: "practicing... streams... practicing streams........ learning how to press two keyboard buttons at a certain BPM in a game about clicking circles on the screen... but what if I learn an actual skill? Does it makes sense? Do I make sense? Why would I try to learn how to spam zx buttons in a game when I can invest that time into learning some actual skill?" Don't get me wrong, there are incredible players on the top of the leaderboards that make insane scores and many people including me enjoy watching that, but I doubt I'd be able to play at least half of that level even if I invest my entire life into the game, so why would I try to practise some very specific and kind of niche skill if I know I still will be mediocre at the end? Sure, I would be much better than average player, but does it worth it? Well, it may be if it is a hobby, but sometimes learning new skills for a hobby is as hard and unwanted as learning skills for something more practical yet less enjoyable (this is the case for me). So I've got into some kind of oblivion: worrying about zero progress and at the same time not investing efforts into practice. A quite strange situation from what I can say.

To make things more sad, I stupidly lost my scores file during system reinstall (I blindly moved only "replays" folder, but forgot about the scores file), so that I lost almost all my PBs replays (oddly enough, was too cared to rewatch PBs replays from time to time, but not cared enough to actually backup it in case if I'd miss it).

Open Hexagon

Ahem... it's more like a noticeably long period of life rather than just a game for me. Actually I won't bother to describe all of that here, just will say I enjoyed to mess around with some cool people from the community, code custom levels and set decent scores for competition. Almost everything related to the game that I put in public can be found on my YouTube channel, the rest is remembered by those who still remember.